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A BAD MORNING
By Fayner | August 4, 2008
I don’t need to tell you how sad I’ve been since losing my dog Rhiannon two months ago tomorrow; there has been a huge change for the worst in both my spirit and motivation. I have dreams where she’s alive, and when I wake from it I look around and she isn’t there, just her ashes next to the bed and sometimes on the bed in the spot she slept just to tell Sara Rib-Eye that she’ll always be #2 and to never to try and take her spot.
Yeah, I know I’m an asshole.
But you know what? That came back to haunt me yesterday morning, and it hurt.
You see, some guy was over the house and he brought his dog with him. I was still in bed, and knew there was another dog in the house but had no clue which dog it was.
Now, Rhiannon was part Bassett Hound, which are bred to hunt rabbits (and chase them into holes, since Rabbits are fast) thus having long nails for digging. Rhiannon had that Bassett trait.
On wood floors, a dog with very long nails makes a certain sound when walking or running. A dog like that hasn’t been in my house since Rhi passed. Until yesterday.
So pretty much I sat in bed listening to what I thought was my dead dog Rhiannon back from Hell running down the hallway over and over and over and over again as this other dog with long nails ran around the house with Lou Lou Ballbaggins and Sara Rib-Eye.
It sucked.
Finally, I had to go outside for a smoke ’cause I couldn’t listen to it anymore.
Tough start to the day, that’s for damn sure.
Maybe I’ll start being nicer to Sara Rib-Eye.
And what are the chances of Rhi being in every dream I ever have again after I snort some of her ashes? It’s gonna be a strange journey…
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August 4th, 2008 at 10:45 am
Are you really snorting her ashes?
But maybe you should buy a new dog. Yeah I know it will never be a replacement for Rhiannon but it might help you get yourself out of this funk you’re in. Or maybe buy a different animal like a cat so at least you have something to take care of and think about besides yourself but it won’t be a constant reminder of a dog.
Stop doing drugs, if you are. Get out more and get some sun. Drink lots of water to cleanse your sytem. And maybe take up yoga.
August 4th, 2008 at 3:25 pm
ehm..
Yankee?! GO HOME!
(this was for the “respect to give”) Just kidding
I also hear dead dogs; when you know how to leave this situation write here, please, they don’t let me sleep:)
August 4th, 2008 at 5:29 pm
Why not adopt a dog that needs you? You needed Rhi, but there is a dog out there that needs you. It’s give and take.